-10 MONTHS OF LOVE-

the only thing that keeping me out of the grave is you.

You know what I’ve been through this past few months and somehow you’re still here standing by side when the world feels like against me and I’m very grateful to have you in my life I know I say this a lot and you probably bored of hearing it but I mean it. Of course we had our ups and downs The day we know that we cant live without each other. At the end of the day we know that we love each other and we care about each other and that’s what makes us stronger than ever. Again thank you for saving my life over and over and over again I honestly don’t know what I’d without you. You still make me want to be a better person everyday

Happy 10 months my love, thank you for dealing with my shit this far. I love you more than I could ever express. Things got messy sometimes but somehow we always found a way to find each other again like we usually do. I know we both going through a lot of shit individually but im glad that we still have each other. I love you so much

idk what are we right now. i just feel like we’ve been trying our best to make our relationship work these past 2 months. lots of shit has been happening at the same time which it made it so hard for us to keep going. looking back at the past and see how much ive been so in love with you and gave my all to you kinda made me realized like damn this girl used to be the one and only person i trust the most. but things dont go our way lately and it honestly so sucks. also the fact that i had to learn how to trust you again now makes it a lot harder than it should because it might take a long time for it to come back especially with all the things you did lately that made me completely broken down into pieces.

but no matter what, i will always be grateful for you. even tho we’re not as we used to anymore, you were still that person who had been in my life and today marked as one year when i asked you out to be my girlfriend. one year ago, i put my ego aside and ready to be committed to you and only you. and i did that, im so grateful that i did it because i still think that was the best decision ive ever made. you brought me joy and made me believe real love is exist. you made me believe that i deserved to be loved. you always remind me about my worth. and i love you for that.

i love that nathaly, who constantly bring me peace and joy everytime im around her. and honestly i miss her. i miss her so much that sometimes i just wanna cry to even want to be with her again. you know i’m not good at expressing my feelings but i really do miss her. i in-fact cried every night overthink about life and how much i missed the old nathaly. how much i missed to feel things again. i feel like i lost myself. i lost my home. i lost everything that i cant even feel anymore and trust me, it feels like hell. i dont even know what more can i say on this carrd bc at this point i dont even know where we’re going or whats gonna happen with us because i felt like we’re not making any progress at all. i just feel like we’ve been getting distance day by day and it would ease the interest between both of us and thats scary asf. but i guess all i gotta say is, no matter what happened. i will always love you and u have a very special place in my heart no matter what. bc youre one of the person who helped me and saved my life for so many times. and ofc keeping you in my life is the best decision ive ever made and i wont ever regret it. so thank you for everything you do for me. good or bad you’re always be my bestfriend. i dont think i could ever hate you. and i wish we could figure out whats really best for us really soon.
-J

Happy One Year Anniversary, Nathaly Bara.